Hey family,
It sounds like things there are going really well.
That makes me super excited to hear about the yard (not the houses).
It will be really nice to have the yard in. I cant wait. That
makes me really sad to hear about Pappap and Granny. Grandma emailed me
her journal that she has been writing on the matter. I will keep her in
her prayers.
Well we had changes today. We didn't get our calls
until 4:00 pm yesterday afternoon. It was kind of crazy. I left
Roma and am now in a place called Granjas. Still in DF. My new
companion is Elder Sanchez. He is from Chiapas and has 4 months in the
mission. He is an amazing missionary. I am so excited to work with
him. Although on the other hand I am sad to not be with Elder Porter
anymore. He has made me such a better missionary and person. He has
really helped me become converted even more. I have such a deep love for
him and for all he has done for me. For being an amazing example for me.
I really understand why President Villarreal put us together.
Yesterday we met an ex missionary that went home last year.
We spent the night in Presidents house my first day in the Field.
He was there with his parents. they are from Lehi. It was so
weird talking to them. I went to school with their other son David.
He is friends with Derek. I really need to
write Derek. He has been on my mind lately. Anyway, it was really nice
talking with them because they are such nice people. The world isn't such
a large place. It actually seems quite small.
We baptized a Joven named Angel yesterday. His sisters
are members but he just never wanted to be baptized. He has gone to
church with them almost every Sunday but just didn't want to. So many
Elders have talked with him but he really just didn't want to. Elder
Porter and I talked with him and he said he wanted to. He just told us he
wanted to. It was such a miracle for us. We had worked all week so
hard but nothing really happened. We have been teaching an amazing family
that had to go out of town this week but will get baptized next Sunday.
It is very difficult to keep working hard with a good attitude when
nothing is happening the way it should. We were so grateful for this
divine blessing given to us by our loving Father in Heaven. Yesterday was
a great day. But it was kind of hard saying goodbye to the people I have
grown to love. I have really seen myself grow in this way. I used
to hate change. But I am getting more and more used to it. I feel
extremely blessed to have this weaknesses become strengths.
My birthday was a bit hard. We ate pancakes for
breakfast. But ended up just not the way I thought. All of the
citas that we had fell through. We were cursed and yelled at by a drunk
guy. Just didn't happen the way I thought. We were going to buy a
cake but we procrastinated too long and it was too late by the time we came
around to buy one. Its alright. Its not a big deal.
I have really been struggling lately with feeling like I am
not good enough to be here. Or waiting for things that just are not
coming. Why it feels like I have not learned to changed as much as I
thought I would by this point. Why I feel like I am not having success as
a missionary. Wondering if I have to learn something that I feel like I
have not learned yet. Just little things. I am trying so hard to keep
these thoughts out of my head but I just cant help it. The only way to
get over it is by going to the Lord in humble prayer. It is so hard
sometimes. When all feels hopeless. when it feels as if the world
itself has come to a stop. or it feels as if no one hears or understands.
The Lord does. Our Heavenly Father knows exactly how we feel.
Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ suffered for every single one of our
afflictions. We must remember. We must apply the Atonement in our
lives. We must do the things that we know will strengthen us. By
this we will be strengthened and brought out of our trials and afflictions.
I know that He hears our prayers. I know He will never leave us.
I know these things are true because I have felt it. It have felt
as if He is wrapping His arms around me. There is no greater feeling or
peace than this. The comfort and counsel of Our Father through the Holy
Ghost.
I love your all very much. Thank you for the love and
support.
Always and Forever,
Elder Hancock
Helaman 5:12
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